I'm Back

I've been bad. Very bad.

I've been neglecting my own blog. Two reasons: One, it's not my fault since my internet conenections aren't working for a week, so I had no choice I couldn't go online. And second, I was too busy in school.

Now I'm back.

Hay. I've just been through one hell week, I tell you. One whole week of crying till I don't have anymore tears left. One whole week of major disappointments in my love life - that once again led me to not believe in fairy tales and happily ever afters, to not to believe that love could lasts after all.

I'm okay now. We're okay. But still, the line 'once bitten, twice shy' holds true for me. I'm scared of getting hurt again. I'm scared of taking the risk one more time. I still don't believe. So while I may say I love you back, while I may smile and joke around and be sweet again, I hold something back of myself. It's what he wants anyway, isn't it? He keeps telling me when you love someone, don't give everything you got, leave something for yourself. Well, yeah, he's right. I've lost something in me that night he broke my heart. I hope it wasn't trust.

I told him once, he made me a stronger person. And he really did. I think I had become a stronger person emotionally because of him.

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Updates about the car accident

Well, police reports say it wasn't my fault. Whew! Big sigh of relief on that.

The car can be fixed, although it costs waaaay tooooo much.

Our insurance went up because of me.

We can drive the car again on April 16.

And lastly, I hope it would still look good as new.