I talked to my cousin earlier about the seemingly endless heartaches I had been going through. She knew of everything that has happened to me these last few weeks. She said that if she hadn't been reading my blog she would never know that I had just gone through such major setbacks in my life. She said that I seem to be strong. Her brother and my auntie thinks that I am strong... She said that this song reminded her of me...

I never really took much heed to the lyrics of this song. I first heard it hit the radio waves when Rico Yan died. But it never really had much impact to me till now.

Actually, to tell you honestly, I had been searching for the perfect song just for me. Something about hiding behind the mask I put on everytime I walk out of my door. And when my cousin told me about it, I knew I had found the right song that best describes what I am feeling right now...

SO here goes...

Warrior Is A Child
by Gary Valenciano

Lately I’ve been winning battles left and right
But even winners can get wounded in the fight
People say that I’m amazing
I’m strong beyond my years
But they don’t see inside of me
I'm hiding all the tears

[CHORUS]
They don’t know
That I come running home when I fall down
They don’t know
Who picks me up when no one is around
I drop my sword and cry for just a while
Cuz deep inside this armor
The warrior is a child

Unafraid because his armor is the best
But even soldiers need a quiet place to rest
People say that I’m amazing
I never face retreat
But they don’t see the enemies
That lay me at his feet

[CHORUS]
They don’t know
That I come running home when I fall down
They don’t know
Who picks me up when no one is around
I drop my sword and cry for just a while
Cuz deep inside this armor
The warrior is a child

They don’t know
That I come running home when I fall down
They don’t know
Who picks me up when no one is around
I drop my sword and look up for a smile
Cuz deep inside this armor (deep inside)
Deep inside this armor
Deep inside this armor
The warrior is a child

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This just says it all.