It's my life, it's my decision

I had always been the type of girl who doesn't care what other people think or say about my actions - be they be good or otherwise.

I always tell them, "It's my life. I don't care what other people think. If ever I would make bad decisions, and then pay for it, then it's okay, because it's me who paid, it's me who learned. It's my life and no one controls it but me. If people don't approve, what the hell do I care. They got nothing better to do but to meddle into other people's business."

I always had this attitude even when I was a kid, maybe that's why my parents don't really meddle with any decisions I make of my life, coz once they do, they know that I would rebel against them. Or at least I would do the reverse thing they expected me to do. This has happened a lot of times, that my parents just let me do what I want, and they don't try to dictate my life. My parents had learned to respect my decisions in life. And I love them for that. They let me do what I want (eventhough maybe a lot of times, I make bad decisions), and then if I fall, they would not shake their heads and tell me 'I told you so', instead they let me learn from my own mistakes, and they would only help me if I ask for their help and guidance. They would help me mend the broken pieces.

Not all people are like me, I know. There are those people who always think of what other people will say about them before they do some kind of action. Honestly, how can you be happy with that? How can you be happy when with every move you make, you look over your shoulder to see if people are snickering behind your back? If that were the case, then your freedom is restricted, you let others dictate your life, you let others dictate your happiness.

I don't know if I have a distorted view of these things. But this is who I am, the girl with the 'I-don't-give-a-f*ck-what-other-people-think' attitude. I'm not saying that I just do what I want to do without contemplating about the consequences of my actions. What I'm saying is that I don't let what others think of me, get to my nerves.

I'm just saying all these things to make a point to someone I hold dear in my heart. You know who you are. Please, I beg you again and again, don't make that fear in your heart an issue to ruin our relationship.