Colorful Life

New template. Yay. I was kinda' getting tired of that depressing blue that greets me every time I open my blog, so I decided to change my background template. Kinda' nice ain't it? Pretty simple.

Actually there's a reason why I chose this template.

While I was talking to Ivy on the phone, updating her of my life here in Jersey, she commented that I live a colorful life... that I'm living a life, period. With the sudden twists and turns my life is undergoing right now, I guess she's right.

I think I asked her what she meant by that. She said that it's because when we were in the Philippines we lived a very sheltered life.

Sheltered? If sheltered means having no financial responsibilities, then yes I was sheltered. If sheltered means, being naive and innocent about the cruel world, yes I was sheltered. If sheltered means no worries about what the future might bring for us (because our parents do all the worrying anyway), then yes, I was sheltered. If sheltered means I was a happy-go-lucky-girl, then yes, I was sheltered.

Is my life now pretty colorful? Nah, I don't think so. It's just a splash of black, white and gray areas, with a little smattering of red, yellow, purple and green on the side. How am I supposed to be living a colorful life here? Is it because of the sudden complications I had made of my life? Is it because in a few short months I had undergone the highs and lows of life? Is it because in a matter of days, I had felt pain, lethargy, relief, and happiness at the same time?

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'Nga pala, watched The Passion of the Christ with Lester last Friday. Hmm.. what can I say about the movie? It's pretty good actually. Ang ganda ng cinematography. Although, well, feeling ko masyadong brutal yung movie. Although sabi nila, that's what really happened. Pero kahit na. I kept closing my eyes at some violent scenes coz d ko talaga ma-take.

Pero maganda nga na pinakita nila talaga yung ano talaga yung ginawa kay Jesus, coz while I was watching it, para bang there was this sudden realization sa akin, na iniisip ko, "Lord, is this what you had to go through to save mankind?" Para bang I was so ashamed sa sarili ko at kay Lord, na he had to undergo such suffering tapos ako, eto, still a sinner.