Oh my god. I am so frustrated. I need a tutor quick! I hate Math. I hate Math. I hate Math. Grr.

Di ko alam kung marami lang bumabagabag sa kin ngayon, na marami lang akong iniisip kaya parang ang hirap mag-sink in nung assignment namin sa Chemistry, or kung sadya talagang mapurol na ang utak ko. Wag naman sana.

Honestly, I've spent almost three hours doing my assignment in Chemistry. And hindi pa ako tapos, marami pa akong iniskip na numbers, kasi d ko tlga alam gawin. It's frustrating. This is supposed to be easy for me, really. Mataas naman Math ko nung college a. Nakaka-uno pa nga ako nun a.

I hope this is just the result of a muddled mind. Hope this will pass soon. Ayoko mag-drop out.
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Why do I keep on hurting people without meaning to? It seems that no matter what I do, no matter if I think it's for the best, I'd end up hurting people I love, thus in the process, I'm hurting myself too.

I thought I wouldn't cry. I thought this girl is tough. I was wrong. He was strong, and I wasn't. He took it well, and I didn't.

And now I'm drowning in my own misery.

How I wish ice cream would do it for me this time. For in the past, whenever I'm sad, or angry, or miserable, I'd just eat ice cream, and somehow I would feel a lot better. But this time, I've already finished almost a half gallon of ice cream, and still, here I am, still miserable.

No, we didn't say goodbye to each other. But I hurt him real bad. I know I did. With my seemingly endless questions, doubts and insecurities, I know I cut a knife through his heart. And I dimmed the light in his eyes. And I'm the cause of his tears.