In my mind right now

Just finished cleaning the apartment. Believe me, it's long overdue.

It's so frustrating, when you had lived all your life in a somewhat big house and big garden, then suddenly you're placed into this tiny space, where you can't even run or with every move you make you bump into something.

But well, just got to live with it.

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I stared at the picture of us together, stared for a long time at that frame placed beside my bed. It all seemed so surreal. When has this happened? When had I become a mere spectator to a game I used to play?

The memory of us seemed so distant now.

I stared at that picture frame with the still faces, smiles frozen with time, and that sparkle in the eyes caught in a snapshot. And somehow I know the answer.

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Had a chat with a dear friend earlier. He said things that made me really reflect.

Thanks JP. I miss you.

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A lot of changes happened in my life these past few days. And I feel that I'm caught in the whirlwind. The changes happened so fast that I couldn't catch up with them. My friend said to just go with the flow. And that's what I'm doing right now. I just hope that I wouldn't be too caught up that one day I'd wake up bewildered and wondering what the heck I just did.

And I just hope that through all these whirlwind of changes, I wouldn't end up hurting another person once again.